After months of physical therapy my therapist is sending me to and Orthopaedic surgeon for further assessment of my knee. Back in November I fell and injured my knee, the next day I fell again and hurt the same knee. For days I dealt with some pretty moderate swelling and pain. Eventaully I went to see the dr. as squatting down was EXTREMELY painful let alone difficult and I was experiencing popping in my knee along with my knee also going weak while walking. I finally got in to see a physical therapist and we did x-rays which only revealed the there was nothing wrong with the bones. Being that I was still in pain almost a month after the incidents she decided to go through with some exercises thinking perhaps I just had a pretty bad bruise with the possibility of a tear in the meniscus. The meniscus is a rubbery disc that cushions the knee and keeps you steady while balancing your weight evenly across. In early February I did my follow up appointment which really didnt go as well as it could, at no fault other than my own. I had been avoiding certain activities and positions that were uncomfortable and painful. She still had concern for a tear but was also considering plica syndrome briefly. So for the next month I was to do new exercises and do all the things I had been avoiding so that I could let her know things such as does twisting hurt, does it hurt to go up or down the stairs etc.
During the past months I also went through things such as 4 weeks of Phonophoresis and 1 week Ionotphoresis. After all is said and done we did one last test. I stood on my right foot (right knee was injured) and closed my eyes. I was not able to maintain this position for more than 3 seconds. On my left I held it for 30 seconds. As where I was slightly amused at my inability to perform such a simple task, she was not. After more poking around on my knee she told me she feels as though she's exhausted all options in physical therapy and wants me to move on to the next specialist. Based on what is discovered on the MRI we will discuss my options in arthroscopic surgery or even cortisone injections. Although neither of those appeal to me in anyway.
I'm at the half-way point in Chase's deployment. Although last night i was feeling so overwhelmed with everything I my thoughts we more in the "glass half empty" stage. We found out he is not going back to Iraq this year. This puts a dent in my plans to return to school, something I've been wanting to do for a looong time.
In all my absentminded-ness I completely forgot that Morghan's school would be closed for Good Friday and the Monday following Easter, thus forgot to ask off of work. I was able to work out Mondays schedule but unfortunately Friday I will have to miss.
Also with all this recession news we finally learned that we have 120 days to increase revenue and decrease labor costs or we will be shutting our doors. This is a hard hit because we have been trying so hard to have our voices heard and until the department head actually joined our meetings absolutely NOTHING was being accomplished. I've had the girls writing down all their ideas whenever something comes to mind that way we can address everything at our next meeting. There are a lot of ideas out there that my supervisor, and hers and his need to be open to. Now had Chase been scheduled to go overseas this would not be an issue for me to as concerned about as I would be leaving anyway around that time to move home and start school. However, at the risk of losing my job being rather high I will now begin the process of locating a new job on base. Hopefully, this will yield a positive outcome.
We still haven't made the judgement call, as to whether or not we will be coming home for a visit late May. We desperately want to, we just aren't sure we will be able to. We feel pressured by family to come home(especially from his parents), but no one seems to fully understand the financial obligation it causes.
In the meantime, I'm setting myself up to get sick. I've been running myself so hard with nothing to support my body. I get an average 5 hours of interrupted sleep a night, and my nutrition has been seriously lacking. Although I'm able to provide Morghan with all she needs I just find myself uninterested in food. Breakfast has become rare, lunch most commonly cosists of a soup or sald and dinner maybe 3 times a week. One would think with being on the eliptical twice a day I'd wear myself down enough to sleep through the night. Chase is upset with me for this, but I can't blame him. I just need to figure out how to get rid of all this stress.
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